It is February 2009 and the following is a list of the things I have done and am still doing to improve my health.

Diet

I am on an almost vegan diet, with the occasional fish, organic chicken and egg thrown in. I try to eat as much as I can raw, but still some way to go. I buy organic as much as I can afford it. This will improve because now I am the proud owner of an allotment.
Almost no salt.
Still no sugar, diary or soya.
Low fruit intake (because of the natural sugar). This is a hard one because I love fruit, but I can feel a difference for the better, by not eating it.
Supplements.
My aim is to go raw eventually and to do green juicing, but for this I need to buy a good juicer first.
Eventually I would like to go to the Hippocrates Institute in Florida for their 3week-healing program.

Exercise

I struggle with this the most. I don’t mind doing outdoor things, but going to the gym or spending time concentrating on one regime is tedious. I have joined a yoga class and I do love that. I do try to do my exercises everyday at home, but am not very consistent at the moment. Again the allotment will come in handy – all the digging and weeding.

Treatments

Cancer: I've stopped the vitamin C infusions for now, as my veins kept collapsing and I was in pain for weeks afterwards. So I've decided to stop for a while to give my veins a chance of recovering. But also I have run out of money and can’t afford it for now.

What I have started doing is injecting Iscador (homeopathic mistletoe). I self-inject 3 times a week and for now it’s going well. I have also looked at Park Attwood Clinic and the treatments they offer there. What they do is inject the mistletoe directly into the tumor. This has been widely used in Europe for the past 80 years. I am planning to go for treatment as soon as I have raised the money needed. The first 4 days as an in-patient are Ł1300 and then Ł250-300 for each subsequent treatment.

Dental: I have taken out the offending tooth and started taking out all the amalgam from my mouth. Still a long way to go though. But I do feel more energetic and positive. The great thing is that I am not in continuous pain any longer. Gone are the head and neck pain. I am actually enjoying the cold weather. Before I used to be in agony during the winter months. This is thanks to my brilliant cranial osteopath as well. He has noticed a great improvement in my health too.

Well-being

I am re-evaluating my life and this is actually the hardest thing of all, because where do I go from here? What is the cancer teaching me? What changes do I need to make to be heard? How much time have I got left? What is really, really important? The strange thing is that I do not fear death. What I fear is dying not having lived fully. Still….

Yoga helps me to be in tune with my body and now I need to learn to meditate to be in tune with my heart. Shamanic journeying helps me stay in tune with my healing. While I sit here and write this I can think of so many things I still need and want to do.

Healing

I feel I am on a journey and somehow I am reconnecting to who I am truly. I feel excited and positive. People are coming into my life again after many years and others are falling away. And all the time I am asking ‘who am I?’ and ‘why am I here?’.